you always want what you can’t have.

My entire adult life, I’ve never had a sweet tooth.  Yes, I like sweets, but I don’t often crave it.  But since giving up sweets, all I want to eat is BabyRuth’s and 3 Musketeers! I need to get back in the swing of things.  Oatmeal for breakfast, salads for lunch.  I did really good last week, I didn’t go out for breakfast or lunch all week…made dinner every day except for Friday.  I know you guys don’t know me, but that’s a huge deal.  With Calista’s after school activities, I hardly ever have time to make dinner.

Today I bought an Elliptical Trainer!  It was only $10 on Craigslist, and I’m so excited.  I’m going to take it to work, and have it under my desk.


Just another baby step to getting where I need to be.

Until next time,



My Fourth Draft

This blog is entitled Project 4th Draft, because I am attempting to create my 4th draft.  My body when I was a teenager, my body during pregancy, my body after pregnancy, and now,

the 4th draft.


This photo was taken of me on Saturday.  And it depressed me.  I ended up needing to weigh myself, and being even more depressed.  I am 255 lbs.  This is the most that I’ve ever weighed.  Even more than when I had a human life growing inside me!  Well, that is just unacceptable.

So, once again, I’ve made the decision to get off my ass, and do something about it.  Rather than sitting around and complaining about it.  So, small changes to effect the big world.

Change Number 1: I’m giving up soda, again.  I love soda.  It’s so comforting and delicious.  Especially Mt. Dew and Cherry Coke.  My weaknesses.

Change Number 2:  I’ve been a smoker, for a very long time.  I quit while I was pregnant with my daughter, but started up again not too long after she was born.  I will be tapering that out of my life as well.

Change Number 3:  This change will help with change number 2 as well.  Usually, Monday – Friday, I take a break at 10am, 12pm and 3pm.  I will smoke a cigarette on each break.  Instead of going outside to smoke, I will be going to the office gym, and walking/jogging/running.

These are the small changes  I’ll be making to get myself on a better path.

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