17 days and counting

Wow.  I have been terrible at updating this.  More terrible than I had ever thought I would be.  So much to update you all on!

My last post was about fundraising for Calista to go to the Lone Star Leadership Academy, as I’m sure you’re all dying to know, I was able to raise enough for her to go!  June 22nd, I’ll be dropping her off for 5 days and 5 nights of education and fun!  It’s kind of crazy, after 10 years, I’ve never been away from her for this length of time.  For my 30th birthday, I went to San Diego for 3 days, but even then, she was with my mom.   So I was still able to talk to her every day, and keep tabs on her.  Luckily, the camp will be posting updates and sending me pictures throughout the trip, so it won’t be so terrible.

While she’s gone, we’re going to finish packing up the apartment, since we are MOVING!  Seattle, Washington, here we come!  It’s all so overwhelming, but so exciting at the same time.  We have so much to do, and not a whole lot of time to do it.  It’s bittersweet, leaving Dallas.  I’ve made a few good friends, made a ton of memories, including my last memories with my mom.  Since she’s gone, we don’t have a reason to stay here.  My job isn’t great, Tyler’s job for sure isn’t great, we’ve made friends, but we still have no family here.  We had thrown a few places around, but in the end we chose Seattle.  My sister is there, as well as my two younger brothers, it’s closer to Alaska, so it’ll be more cost effective when we choose to go back for vacations.  I’m really looking forward to all the new opportunities that should come across us, and the new people we will meet.

We had also decided to turn this move into our summer vacation!  I can’t remember if I talked about this website before, I’m pretty sure I did, but either way.  RoadTrippers.com is how we’ve found a ton of the things we plan on doing.  I keep adding and subtracting things,  most of what I have scheduled isn’t put into the Road Trippers itinerary, but it has helped us find a lot of things I never would have seen without it.  If you have any interest, you can see the basis of our trip here.  To keep my friends and family posted, I’ll be doing my very best to be posting daily updates on our trip.  I’m expecting it to be around a week, maybe more?  I really have no clue.  After Disneyland we really have no timeline.  I wanted to go to Yosemite, but I had no idea campsites filled up that fast.  Within hours of the reservations for the season opening.  Double damn!

On to some updates.  I haven’t been eating well, and have not lost any weight.  In actuality, I’ve probably gained 100 pounds.  Or at least it feels like it.  I still have not had any soda, so it’s been, 8 months now?  As far as reading goes, I’ve read a few more books, I’ve slowed down a lot, but I’m still on track to completing the challenge!




Seriously…I’m Kidding is hilarious.  I felt like every page I was laughing.  The Longest Ride was great, finally a romantic book, without teenagers haha  Finally, Room.  I hated it.  I just couldn’t get past the book being narrated by a 5 year old.  So hard to read!  I think I’m going to read the Harry Potter books soon.  I’ve never read them, and actually never watched all of the movies.  So I figured that was something that Calista and I could do together…

Oh!  I went to see The Fault in Our Stars!  And strangely enough, I went by myself.  Myself, plus 59 other strangers.  It was kind of nice, going by myself.  I think I want to make a habit of this.

Anyway, I will probably write once more before we go, but please, keep reading, and keep me in line!  Make me write!



until next time,



you always want what you can’t have.

My entire adult life, I’ve never had a sweet tooth.  Yes, I like sweets, but I don’t often crave it.  But since giving up sweets, all I want to eat is BabyRuth’s and 3 Musketeers! I need to get back in the swing of things.  Oatmeal for breakfast, salads for lunch.  I did really good last week, I didn’t go out for breakfast or lunch all week…made dinner every day except for Friday.  I know you guys don’t know me, but that’s a huge deal.  With Calista’s after school activities, I hardly ever have time to make dinner.

Today I bought an Elliptical Trainer!  It was only $10 on Craigslist, and I’m so excited.  I’m going to take it to work, and have it under my desk.


Just another baby step to getting where I need to be.

Until next time,


walk.run.DO NOT SMOKE!

walk.run.DON'T SMOKE!

Day one of skipping a ciggie for a walk/run. Today, was walking. Steep incline, moderate walking pace. My calves are on fire! I’m so out of shape it’s ridiculous.

Honestly, if this is all I do every day, walk for 20 minutes, and give up 2 of my daily ciggies, I’m still making progress.  And I’m proud of myself for that. 

Today, I’m taking Calista and the girl I babysit Monday – Wednesday to the park. They’ll play. I’ll walk.

My Fourth Draft

This blog is entitled Project 4th Draft, because I am attempting to create my 4th draft.  My body when I was a teenager, my body during pregancy, my body after pregnancy, and now,

the 4th draft.


This photo was taken of me on Saturday.  And it depressed me.  I ended up needing to weigh myself, and being even more depressed.  I am 255 lbs.  This is the most that I’ve ever weighed.  Even more than when I had a human life growing inside me!  Well, that is just unacceptable.

So, once again, I’ve made the decision to get off my ass, and do something about it.  Rather than sitting around and complaining about it.  So, small changes to effect the big world.

Change Number 1: I’m giving up soda, again.  I love soda.  It’s so comforting and delicious.  Especially Mt. Dew and Cherry Coke.  My weaknesses.

Change Number 2:  I’ve been a smoker, for a very long time.  I quit while I was pregnant with my daughter, but started up again not too long after she was born.  I will be tapering that out of my life as well.

Change Number 3:  This change will help with change number 2 as well.  Usually, Monday – Friday, I take a break at 10am, 12pm and 3pm.  I will smoke a cigarette on each break.  Instead of going outside to smoke, I will be going to the office gym, and walking/jogging/running.

These are the small changes  I’ll be making to get myself on a better path.

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