my luck.

I’ve finally started getting serious about getting healthy.  It’s not that I haven’t wanted to get serious before, but as you know, life keeps throwing rocks at me.  My plan was to start going to the gym last week, but I had that seizure, and then my eye was so swollen at the end of the week (unrelated to the seizure), I could barely see.  I went to the gym on Monday, I attempted the first day of couch to 5k training, but realized, I need to start off a little slower than that.  I am so out of shape, it’s ridiculous.  Utterly ridiculous.

Day 1:

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I think I’m going to take one of these photos every day I go to the gym.  To hold myself accountable, or something.

Day 2:

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A friend of mine has been trying to talk me into Weight Watchers for a long time, I’ve always been hesitant and made excuses.  For some reason, I was looking up recipes for it last night, and it just clicked.  I’m definitely going to do this.  I’m terrible at making decisions with food.  I am a lover of pizza, cheeseburgers, burritos, cheesecake.  Oh man, the list goes on.  Weight watchers will help me be able to have these things, but show me a better way about it.  So, come March, I will be getting a raise at work, which will basically pay for Weight Watchers.  I’m going to do it.  And I’m really fucking excited about it. 

This morning I was leaving my house, headed to work.  I got probably 3 steps away from my door, and BLAM!   I am on my knees, with my feet 90 degrees to the side.  I really don’t know how to explain it, but I just thinking of people break dancing.  Apparently my body doesn’t know I’m not a dancer, and that my legs don’t move like that.  At least not without an immense amount of pain.  I made it to work, and still walked up the stairs.  I’m not sure if I’m going to be able to go to the gym today though, maybe I can just make it a weights day.  I don’t think that me and the treadmill are going to be able to be friends for a while.  The inner side of my knee is absolutely killing me, while I SIT, let alone walk. 

FML.  Seriously.  Just, FML.  Maybe January was just meant to get all of my bad luck out of the way, and the rest of 2014 will be better.  Fingers crossed. 

Oh, and happy anniversary to me!  4 years with Mr. Tyler today!

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checkpoint

So, 17 days into the new year.  I am not doing so hot on the health kick/gym rat thing.  BUT!  Calista has after school things Monday through Thursday, so I decided to bite the bullet.  I really hate going to the gym after work, because there’s usually way too many people.  I like to go around 8pm, when there is not a single soul.  I can run in my sports bra, and not be embarrassed.  It’s an important part of my workout, running free, so to speak.  Whatever though, starting Monday, I will go to the gym right after work.  I will take photos next week to prove it.  Jessica is getting her ass in gear!

I was going to do a weigh in addition to this post, but I weighed myself last night, and well, I have not lost a single pound.  Which is depressing, but my own fault.  So that’s another reason for paragraph one.

Today is a special day though!  Today, is day 100, without soda!

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I seriously, never thought I could get here, it’s kind of confirmation that I CAN do shit, as long as I really want to. So, I’m going to delete this Streak, and starting tomorrow (not today only because I already had it), I am giving up sweets.  I am allowed 1 cheat day (if needed/wanted) per week.  No more cookies, brownies, chocolates.  Niet!  I can do this!

On to my 50 Books in 2014 challenge!  I’m way ahead of schedule!

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The books I’ve read since the last post, have been great, for the most part.  I REALLY hated The Ocean at the End of the Lane.  Like, struggled SO hard to finish it.  Just, not my type of book I suppose. I have decided that John Green is the most amazing writer.  Will Grayson Will Grayson, was so cute, and The Fault in Our Stars, I was BAWLING.  Like, uncontrollably.  It was refreshing.  I can/can’t wait for the movie.  The Giver, most people I talked to had read the book in middle school, or high school, so I guess I’m behind on the times.  The read was great, but I am extremely disappointed in the ending!  What the hell?!  What happens next?!  And Gone Girl, I really loved this book.  Even though it did the whole back and forth between times, and journal entries, and even 2 people narrating the book!  So, maybe I don’t dislike those things after all, it just has to be done right.

I’m in love with this challenge.  I never thought that I would be a reader.  I think this challenge, has reminded me how much more fun books are than TV, and I needed that.  At this rate, I’m well on my way to completing my first bucket list item!

until next time,

j

 

if at first you don’t succeed.

oday I attempted Week1-Day1 of the Couch to 5k program.  Unfortunately, I had put my phone to sleep so I didn’t waste battery while being out, and apparently the app I downloaded only operates when it’s up and running.  So, for the first 8 minutes, I was just straight walking.  After I realized what was happening, I started to work the intervals.

I know you guys can SEE what kind of shape I’m in.  Round, lumpy and not proportionate at all.  After todays failed attempt, I can FEEL how out of shape I am.  I only did 3 intervals of the “running” for 1 minute and walking for 1.5 minutes, and I feel like I want to hawk up my lungs.  I know a lot of this has to do with the fact that I am a long time smoker (which I’m also working on weeding out of my life), but damn.

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if at first you don’t succeed.

Today I attempted Week1-Day1 of the Couch to 5k program.  Unfortunately, I had put my phone to sleep so I didn’t waste battery while being out, and apparently the app I downloaded only operates when it’s up and running.  So, for the first 8 minutes, I was just straight walking.  After I realized what was happening, I started to work the intervals.

I know you guys can SEE what kind of shape I’m in.  Round, lumpy and not proportionate at all.  After todays failed attempt, I can FEEL how out of shape I am.  I only did 3 intervals of the “running” for 1 minute and walking for 1.5 minutes, and I feel like I want to hawk up my lungs.  I know a lot of this has to do with the fact that I am a long time smoker (which I’m also working on weeding out of my life), but damn.

After I realized that this was not going to be a completed challenge day for C25k, I opted to just walk the rest of the way home.  Which, was still not an easy task.  When I say I was walking, it was at a faster pace, so it’s not like I was taking it easy on myself.  My shins, calves and feet are all on fire.  I can even feel it a little in my abdomen, and my back/shoulders.  I arrived home, and immediately threw my shoes off and laid in the bed.

Using the MapMyRun app, this is what I was left with:

Hell.  Day 1.

Hell. Day 1.

Even though my legs are super sore already, I’m still going to do this tomorrow.  I think I need to work up a few more days of walking, and less smoking, prior to taking on Couch25k.  And I probably need to get a new pair of shoes prior to running as well because these shoes, are not friendly to my feet.

 

Until next time,

j

you always want what you can’t have.

My entire adult life, I’ve never had a sweet tooth.  Yes, I like sweets, but I don’t often crave it.  But since giving up sweets, all I want to eat is BabyRuth’s and 3 Musketeers! I need to get back in the swing of things.  Oatmeal for breakfast, salads for lunch.  I did really good last week, I didn’t go out for breakfast or lunch all week…made dinner every day except for Friday.  I know you guys don’t know me, but that’s a huge deal.  With Calista’s after school activities, I hardly ever have time to make dinner.

Today I bought an Elliptical Trainer!  It was only $10 on Craigslist, and I’m so excited.  I’m going to take it to work, and have it under my desk.

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Just another baby step to getting where I need to be.

Until next time,

J