So, 17 days into the new year.  I am not doing so hot on the health kick/gym rat thing.  BUT!  Calista has after school things Monday through Thursday, so I decided to bite the bullet.  I really hate going to the gym after work, because there’s usually way too many people.  I like to go around 8pm, when there is not a single soul.  I can run in my sports bra, and not be embarrassed.  It’s an important part of my workout, running free, so to speak.  Whatever though, starting Monday, I will go to the gym right after work.  I will take photos next week to prove it.  Jessica is getting her ass in gear!

I was going to do a weigh in addition to this post, but I weighed myself last night, and well, I have not lost a single pound.  Which is depressing, but my own fault.  So that’s another reason for paragraph one.

Today is a special day though!  Today, is day 100, without soda!

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I seriously, never thought I could get here, it’s kind of confirmation that I CAN do shit, as long as I really want to. So, I’m going to delete this Streak, and starting tomorrow (not today only because I already had it), I am giving up sweets.  I am allowed 1 cheat day (if needed/wanted) per week.  No more cookies, brownies, chocolates.  Niet!  I can do this!

On to my 50 Books in 2014 challenge!  I’m way ahead of schedule!


The books I’ve read since the last post, have been great, for the most part.  I REALLY hated The Ocean at the End of the Lane.  Like, struggled SO hard to finish it.  Just, not my type of book I suppose. I have decided that John Green is the most amazing writer.  Will Grayson Will Grayson, was so cute, and The Fault in Our Stars, I was BAWLING.  Like, uncontrollably.  It was refreshing.  I can/can’t wait for the movie.  The Giver, most people I talked to had read the book in middle school, or high school, so I guess I’m behind on the times.  The read was great, but I am extremely disappointed in the ending!  What the hell?!  What happens next?!  And Gone Girl, I really loved this book.  Even though it did the whole back and forth between times, and journal entries, and even 2 people narrating the book!  So, maybe I don’t dislike those things after all, it just has to be done right.

I’m in love with this challenge.  I never thought that I would be a reader.  I think this challenge, has reminded me how much more fun books are than TV, and I needed that.  At this rate, I’m well on my way to completing my first bucket list item!

until next time,




Weigh In #1: Not for those with weak stomachs

Weigh In #1: Not for those with weak stomachs

This is the most depressing photo I’ve ever taken. But this is the last time you’ll see me look like this. It’s time for me to take control of my life, and my body. As my sister says, “it’s time to start putting premium in me, because I’m a Porsche!”.

Anyway, this is unacceptable, I am better than this.

My Fourth Draft

This blog is entitled Project 4th Draft, because I am attempting to create my 4th draft.  My body when I was a teenager, my body during pregancy, my body after pregnancy, and now,

the 4th draft.


This photo was taken of me on Saturday.  And it depressed me.  I ended up needing to weigh myself, and being even more depressed.  I am 255 lbs.  This is the most that I’ve ever weighed.  Even more than when I had a human life growing inside me!  Well, that is just unacceptable.

So, once again, I’ve made the decision to get off my ass, and do something about it.  Rather than sitting around and complaining about it.  So, small changes to effect the big world.

Change Number 1: I’m giving up soda, again.  I love soda.  It’s so comforting and delicious.  Especially Mt. Dew and Cherry Coke.  My weaknesses.

Change Number 2:  I’ve been a smoker, for a very long time.  I quit while I was pregnant with my daughter, but started up again not too long after she was born.  I will be tapering that out of my life as well.

Change Number 3:  This change will help with change number 2 as well.  Usually, Monday – Friday, I take a break at 10am, 12pm and 3pm.  I will smoke a cigarette on each break.  Instead of going outside to smoke, I will be going to the office gym, and walking/jogging/running.

These are the small changes  I’ll be making to get myself on a better path.

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