Change.

I’m unemployed. I haven’t had to say that in a while. Granted this was by choice, and due to a pretty hefty move halfway across the country, but still. It’s kind of a scary thing. When I was leaving the office, I was saying goodbye to some of my co-workers, I wasn’t expecting to get emotional since I hadn’t been happy there for a long time. When I got to my favorite co-worker, the tears started flowing. Even when you hate where you work, it sucks leaving behind the people who made it bearable.

This week, my job will be to pack up our home of the last three and a half years. We dropped Calista off at the Lone Star Leadership Academy this afternoon, so we were able to pack up her room pretty quickly. With her here it was hard because she wants to keep everything. Tomorrow we will tackle the kitchen and clean up the Caliber to get it ready to sell.

I’ve completed a couple more books. I’m currently on book 30. I decided to read the Harry Potter series since I had never done so before. That’ll get me through a few weeks of reading.

It’s been 6 hours since I left Calista at camp. I’m a little lost without her, but I know she’s going to have an incredible week. I saw a couple pictures that the camp posted, and can’t wait to see if/how she documented her time away on the camera I sent with her.

Until next time,
j

oops.

Well, it’s been a while since my last post.  It feels like nothing has happened since, but that would be a lie.  

Calista started soccer, her team isn’t very good, but she’s having a lot of fun, and the kids seem to be enjoying themselves.  Calista is one of the better players, with the most fundamentals, she really enjoys being able to tell the other kids what to do on the field.  I wonder where she gets that from.  

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 Reading has been slowing down quite a bit.  I think it’s because the books I’ve been reading haven’t been catching my interest as much.  I mean, they’ve been good books, but not so exciting to where I can’t put them down.  Except for Eleanor & Park, I loved that book.  Cheesy romantic comedy, that’s what I’m into I guess.  Although, Thirteen Reasons Why wasn’t so bad either.  I wasn’t super fond of the ending, but it kept me wanting to know what happened next.  

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I celebrated my 31st birthday last Friday.  30 didn’t treat me very well, so I wanted to make sure I started 31 off right.  I told Tyler that for my birthday, I didn’t want presents, I wanted to go to Austin.  Since we’re leaving Dallas in a few months, I wanted to make sure that Calista and Tyler got to experience Austin, since I had such a great time when I went in 2012.  

I had found this scavenger hunt thing, where you take pictures with a bunch of murals around the city.  Unfortunately, we only found 3 of the murals.  Time constraints and what not.  

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We had such a good time though, I would definitely go back.  So much good food!  So many activities.  We didn’t even get to do everything I had planned to do, but honestly, I don’t even care.  We all had so much fun.  Calista and Tylers favorite part was canoeing in Zilker Park.  It wasn’t the same part of the park that I had gone canoeing in before, but it was just as fun.  

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So, that has caught you up on what I’ve been up to over the last few weeks.  I’ll do my best to post more often.  I really need to get my ass in gear on this reading thing.  I don’t want to fall behind.  

until next time,

j

 

 

onward and upward!

If you weren’t aware, this summer, my family and I will be leaving Dallas. We moved here 3 years ago, to help take care of my mom because she was sick. Now that she’s gone, we have no reason to stay here. We have no family here, our jobs are not wonderful, we have made some friends, and it is going to be sad leaving them, but we have to make changes.

I found this completely RAD website on Pinterest the other night.  It’s called Roadtrippers, and it’s really helpful for anyone going on a road trip.  No matter how short or long the trip is.  Basically, you put in where you’ll be departing from, and your final destination.  It’ll give you the best route to take (you can change the route to take certain highways that you would prefer), and then you can choose attractions, restaurants, there are 9 different categories, with subcategories, and you can choose how far off your path you’re willing to travel.  Then, it will put little pins at all the different things you’re looking for.  It’s awesome.  This is what I’ve got so far for our road trip:

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If you click on the photo, you can click on the numbers, and see what kind of stuff we’ll be doing while on the road trip.

I was excited about this move before, but since I found this website, I’m even more excited!  I even decided we would take a detour and knock off one of my bucket list items!  We’re going to go to the Four Corners!

until next time,

j

sunday fun day.

Well, it’s a 3 day weekend.  For Calista.  Working in the claims department of an insurance company, we don’t get all the holidays unfortunately, so back to work tomorrow for me.  The family and I had a little fun today though, played catch, did some art stuff.  I ordered one of Calista’s birthday presents, which I am SO excited about.  You’ll have to wait another 2 months to see it though, and it’s going to be a family affair.  I’ve got one for each of us.

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In regards to my working out, I haven’t gone back to the gym since I busted my knee a couple weeks ago.  I can walk like a normal person now, but I can’t do much more than that.  My knee doesn’t like it when I take corners, or stairs at a fast pace.  I’m pretty sure I should have gone to the doctor about this, but alas, no insurance.  I have been doing little things at home, I bought a resistance band, and Calista and I do sit-ups and stuff.  Calista will be starting soccer this week, and I’ll be helping with practice.  The days she doesn’t have practice, I’ll start walking again at night, since it’s warmed up again.

On to my favorite resolution of the year, 50 Books in 2014.  I’m still ahead of schedule, I did take a week off though.  I was reading SO much, it was starting to feel like a chore.  I know there are people out there who read double what I’m reading now, but hey…prior to this, I was reading maybe half of a book every year.  So, it’s a ton for me.  These are the books I’ve read since my last post about the challenge:

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I was never really interested in reading The Hunger Games trilogy, honestly I’m not really interested in the movies either.  They were decent reads, I don’t think I would read them again, but they were fun, and I’m glad I read them. Wild: From Lost to Found on the Pacific Crest Trail was great.  It’s based on the author’s own experience, and it makes me incredibly jealous.  I’ve always wanted to have an adventure like that.  Maybe not hiking 1,500 miles, but a great adventure.  I really suggest that anyone read this.  The Hour I First Believed was my first paperback book of the challenge.  Everyone has their preferences on how they like to read, I think I prefer reading on my iPad, just because I like reading at night, and don’t have a bedside lamp.  Anyway, this is probably the longest book I’ve ever read.  A whopping 723 pages or something.  The great thing about this book is that, even with 723 pages, there is ALWAYS something going on.  There are so many intertwining stories, it honestly feels like there could have been more than one book in here, but I really loved the read.  The ending was sad, I won’t give anything away, since some of you may not have read the book yet.  Caelum has so much shit happen to him, I was really thinking that he was going to commit suicide in the end.  Anyway, you should read this.  Seriously.

I’ve started book 14, so that puts me roughly 6 or 7 books ahead of schedule.  I do love this challenge, I feel better about myself knowing I’m spending more time reading, rather than watching TV, or playing games on my phone or something idiotic like that.

My little diet challenges have failed miserably.  I’ve recently become obsessed with M&Ms.  I’m still doing well with water, I still haven’t had a soda.  I stopped keeping track of how many days though, since well, I don’t care about any other beverage anymore.

Well, it’s been like 2 weeks since my last post, but I’ve caught you all up now.  Work.  Help Calista with homework.  Read.  That’s my life.

until next time,

J

life lessons.

When we have kids, we always think they’re perfect.  They’re the best at everything that they do, and no one can tell you any different.  I am not the exception.  Calista plays soccer, she’s in honor choir, on a step team, she does every activity she can.  As perfect as I think she is, she isn’t always chosen to be the captain, or to have a staring role.

Calista had been practicing the routine for her school step team for months.  When it was time to finally decide who was going to compete, she wasn’t chosen.  She was an alternate, and this angered me, and made me sad.  I wanted her to be in the competition!  After the the semester ended, a couple of the kids were kicked out of the program because their grades were less than the B- that is required.  Calista was no longer an alternate, she was in the show!  Which was wonderful (not so much for the kids who were kicked out), but then I found out Calista got this janky part of the routine.  She was to roller skate across the stage.  And that was it.  She would roller skate.  For 15 seconds across the stage, and that was her whole part.  She has practiced twice a week, for an hour and a half, for 4 months.  And every single day, for the last week, for an hour and a half.  Even the last 2 Saturdays for 3 hours.  So she could roller skate across the stage for 15 seconds.

Calista didn’t seem to mind, she was just glad to be in the performance.

On Friday, they had their competition.  There were about 14 teams I believe, Calista’s school was the 11th to perform.  During their performance, the DJ messed up one of their songs.  From what I understand, this disqualified them from being able to place, because it made their performance time too long.  Calista was incredibly bummed.  She didn’t talk much for the rest of the night, and to top it off, she lost her jacket somewhere.  For those of you who don’t know Calista, she’s very sensitive., her feelings get hurt over the smallest things.

I’m very proud of their team, no matter what.  They all worked so hard, and were so dang cute doing it.  Here’s her step team performing.  You can tell when the song gets messed up.  It’s kind of awkward.  Haha.  Calista is the one in the very beginning, skating across the gym.

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So, the lesson is, my daughter is perfect.  No matter what.  But she won’t always be a winner.

my luck.

I’ve finally started getting serious about getting healthy.  It’s not that I haven’t wanted to get serious before, but as you know, life keeps throwing rocks at me.  My plan was to start going to the gym last week, but I had that seizure, and then my eye was so swollen at the end of the week (unrelated to the seizure), I could barely see.  I went to the gym on Monday, I attempted the first day of couch to 5k training, but realized, I need to start off a little slower than that.  I am so out of shape, it’s ridiculous.  Utterly ridiculous.

Day 1:

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I think I’m going to take one of these photos every day I go to the gym.  To hold myself accountable, or something.

Day 2:

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A friend of mine has been trying to talk me into Weight Watchers for a long time, I’ve always been hesitant and made excuses.  For some reason, I was looking up recipes for it last night, and it just clicked.  I’m definitely going to do this.  I’m terrible at making decisions with food.  I am a lover of pizza, cheeseburgers, burritos, cheesecake.  Oh man, the list goes on.  Weight watchers will help me be able to have these things, but show me a better way about it.  So, come March, I will be getting a raise at work, which will basically pay for Weight Watchers.  I’m going to do it.  And I’m really fucking excited about it. 

This morning I was leaving my house, headed to work.  I got probably 3 steps away from my door, and BLAM!   I am on my knees, with my feet 90 degrees to the side.  I really don’t know how to explain it, but I just thinking of people break dancing.  Apparently my body doesn’t know I’m not a dancer, and that my legs don’t move like that.  At least not without an immense amount of pain.  I made it to work, and still walked up the stairs.  I’m not sure if I’m going to be able to go to the gym today though, maybe I can just make it a weights day.  I don’t think that me and the treadmill are going to be able to be friends for a while.  The inner side of my knee is absolutely killing me, while I SIT, let alone walk. 

FML.  Seriously.  Just, FML.  Maybe January was just meant to get all of my bad luck out of the way, and the rest of 2014 will be better.  Fingers crossed. 

Oh, and happy anniversary to me!  4 years with Mr. Tyler today!

epilepsy.

As most of you know, I have epilepsy.  I was diagnosed when I was 13 years old.  Over the years, my episodes have gotten worse, more frequent and well, all around less desirable.

I was seizure free for almost 4 years, and I was really excited about that.  I was hoping that I was growing out of it, which some people do.  Unfortunately, that was not the case.  I ended up having 1 in October of 2012, and I’ve had several since then.  Most recently, today.  Luckily I was at work, and one of my co-workers used to be a paramedic, so I’m guessing he knew what to do.

I guess I’m just writing this blog post, to vent.  I don’t expect any sympathy, or answers.  Things are not in my favor.  I don’t have insurance for my medication, and without my medication, here I am.  Having seizures.

I’m being very irresponsible.  I’m still driving, even though I’m not supposed to be.  How else am I supposed to get to work?  I don’t know anyone who l ives close to my office that could drive me, the public transportation sucks here.  I mean, I live approximately 7 miles from my office.  According to the Dart schedule, it would take a little less than 2 hours to get there.  How the hell does that work?

I don’t know, I don’t know what to do.  I’ve started looking into programs that will help pay for the medication, hopefully I find something quick.  I would like to get my episodes under control.  I’m tired of being scared, all the time.  So, wish me luck.  Oh, and if any of you have any suggestions, on how I can get my medication, or even see a neurologist, without insurance, and without costing me a ton of money that I don’t have, I would greatly appreciate it.