my luck.

I’ve finally started getting serious about getting healthy.  It’s not that I haven’t wanted to get serious before, but as you know, life keeps throwing rocks at me.  My plan was to start going to the gym last week, but I had that seizure, and then my eye was so swollen at the end of the week (unrelated to the seizure), I could barely see.  I went to the gym on Monday, I attempted the first day of couch to 5k training, but realized, I need to start off a little slower than that.  I am so out of shape, it’s ridiculous.  Utterly ridiculous.

Day 1:

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I think I’m going to take one of these photos every day I go to the gym.  To hold myself accountable, or something.

Day 2:

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A friend of mine has been trying to talk me into Weight Watchers for a long time, I’ve always been hesitant and made excuses.  For some reason, I was looking up recipes for it last night, and it just clicked.  I’m definitely going to do this.  I’m terrible at making decisions with food.  I am a lover of pizza, cheeseburgers, burritos, cheesecake.  Oh man, the list goes on.  Weight watchers will help me be able to have these things, but show me a better way about it.  So, come March, I will be getting a raise at work, which will basically pay for Weight Watchers.  I’m going to do it.  And I’m really fucking excited about it. 

This morning I was leaving my house, headed to work.  I got probably 3 steps away from my door, and BLAM!   I am on my knees, with my feet 90 degrees to the side.  I really don’t know how to explain it, but I just thinking of people break dancing.  Apparently my body doesn’t know I’m not a dancer, and that my legs don’t move like that.  At least not without an immense amount of pain.  I made it to work, and still walked up the stairs.  I’m not sure if I’m going to be able to go to the gym today though, maybe I can just make it a weights day.  I don’t think that me and the treadmill are going to be able to be friends for a while.  The inner side of my knee is absolutely killing me, while I SIT, let alone walk. 

FML.  Seriously.  Just, FML.  Maybe January was just meant to get all of my bad luck out of the way, and the rest of 2014 will be better.  Fingers crossed. 

Oh, and happy anniversary to me!  4 years with Mr. Tyler today!

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if at first you don’t succeed.

oday I attempted Week1-Day1 of the Couch to 5k program.  Unfortunately, I had put my phone to sleep so I didn’t waste battery while being out, and apparently the app I downloaded only operates when it’s up and running.  So, for the first 8 minutes, I was just straight walking.  After I realized what was happening, I started to work the intervals.

I know you guys can SEE what kind of shape I’m in.  Round, lumpy and not proportionate at all.  After todays failed attempt, I can FEEL how out of shape I am.  I only did 3 intervals of the “running” for 1 minute and walking for 1.5 minutes, and I feel like I want to hawk up my lungs.  I know a lot of this has to do with the fact that I am a long time smoker (which I’m also working on weeding out of my life), but damn.

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if at first you don’t succeed.

Today I attempted Week1-Day1 of the Couch to 5k program.  Unfortunately, I had put my phone to sleep so I didn’t waste battery while being out, and apparently the app I downloaded only operates when it’s up and running.  So, for the first 8 minutes, I was just straight walking.  After I realized what was happening, I started to work the intervals.

I know you guys can SEE what kind of shape I’m in.  Round, lumpy and not proportionate at all.  After todays failed attempt, I can FEEL how out of shape I am.  I only did 3 intervals of the “running” for 1 minute and walking for 1.5 minutes, and I feel like I want to hawk up my lungs.  I know a lot of this has to do with the fact that I am a long time smoker (which I’m also working on weeding out of my life), but damn.

After I realized that this was not going to be a completed challenge day for C25k, I opted to just walk the rest of the way home.  Which, was still not an easy task.  When I say I was walking, it was at a faster pace, so it’s not like I was taking it easy on myself.  My shins, calves and feet are all on fire.  I can even feel it a little in my abdomen, and my back/shoulders.  I arrived home, and immediately threw my shoes off and laid in the bed.

Using the MapMyRun app, this is what I was left with:

Hell.  Day 1.

Hell. Day 1.

Even though my legs are super sore already, I’m still going to do this tomorrow.  I think I need to work up a few more days of walking, and less smoking, prior to taking on Couch25k.  And I probably need to get a new pair of shoes prior to running as well because these shoes, are not friendly to my feet.

 

Until next time,

j

you always want what you can’t have.

My entire adult life, I’ve never had a sweet tooth.  Yes, I like sweets, but I don’t often crave it.  But since giving up sweets, all I want to eat is BabyRuth’s and 3 Musketeers! I need to get back in the swing of things.  Oatmeal for breakfast, salads for lunch.  I did really good last week, I didn’t go out for breakfast or lunch all week…made dinner every day except for Friday.  I know you guys don’t know me, but that’s a huge deal.  With Calista’s after school activities, I hardly ever have time to make dinner.

Today I bought an Elliptical Trainer!  It was only $10 on Craigslist, and I’m so excited.  I’m going to take it to work, and have it under my desk.

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Just another baby step to getting where I need to be.

Until next time,

J

walk.run.DO NOT SMOKE!

walk.run.DON'T SMOKE!

Day one of skipping a ciggie for a walk/run. Today, was walking. Steep incline, moderate walking pace. My calves are on fire! I’m so out of shape it’s ridiculous.

Honestly, if this is all I do every day, walk for 20 minutes, and give up 2 of my daily ciggies, I’m still making progress.  And I’m proud of myself for that. 

Today, I’m taking Calista and the girl I babysit Monday – Wednesday to the park. They’ll play. I’ll walk.